I’m tired of trying to figure out which thoughts are mine and which are Theirs. 

I’m so tired of disappointing people, I’m tired of making people care and worry. I just want everyone else to be happy. I want everyone to be happy and free and peaceful and happy. I honestly do not want anyone to care about me. I’m tired of people lying to me though. I’m tired of people pretending to care. I’m so sick of feeling like this. I’m so sick of feeling not good enough for anyone. I’m not good enough. I just want my head back. I want my body back. I want my thoughts back. Everything else can just fade away. I don’t want to be the ghost of a wolf posing as a girl anymore. I just don’t want any of this. 

my mom is making me go to a new therapist tomorrow

kms ✖‿✖

I’m seriously the most replaceable person. I have lots of “friends”. I’ve been in a lot of relationships. But I always get replaced. No one actually wants me around. It’s like no one actually needs me, or wants me. I’m so easily forgotten, replaced, fucked over. No one ever thinks about my feelings or how this might make me feel. I spend my entire life trying to make people happy. It gets me nowhere. 

I’m so tired of people pretending that they’re here for me and that they care and that I can talk to them when It’s obviously not true. 

I can tell I’m starting into another one of my moods where I literally give not a single fuck and just do crazy shit. I just commanded someone to drive me to the store, I bought hair dye, &dyed my hair black, (it was purple). 

last time i did so many fucking stupid things and i’m kind of freaked out about what i’m going to do next and i just want to lock myself in my room ;asadfghgk

Hey guys, 

I’d just like to say. If any of you ever need anyone to talk about, vent to, rant to, about absolutely anything, I am here for you. I mean this 100%. You can go anonymous if you’d like, or you can go off anonymous. It doesn’t matter to me. I just want you all to know that I love you, & I will always be here for you. 

excuse me for saying this but i’ve found that hanging out with older guys is a great solution when you’re feeling sad and lonely.

You never wanted to be beautiful. You wanted to be a ghost.

I don’t know how to live anymore. I don’t think I want to.

maybe happiness

is hidden

somewhere in 

your wrists.

idk i just want to hang out with someone today. like seriously anyone. because i know if i’m alone i’ll end up getting drunk or high and i just want to be sober and have a good day but my friends are out of town i just want someone to chill with okay why does most everyone hate me. fuck. 

okay am i the only one who will really like a picture but not want to reblog it because it’s on everyone’s blog. is it just me or.